setelah sekian lama tidak berblog..erm.ramai teman yg komplen..nape blog aku xleh komen?jawapannya: entahlah..aku pun xtau nape..setting da lari..nampak cm da betulkan..tp xbetul2 gak..korg baca je boleh kan..hehe..t bile da boleh komen i'll inform u guys.:P
da lame rasenye xmenaip panjang2..since submit my last assignment la kot..subjek ape ye?hehe xingat da..jgn mare..tp time 2 mmg jenuh la tangan duk menaip curahan2 idea yg mencurah2 seperti coklat d ladang gandum koko krunch!
how's my life now?
three points im gonna tell u here.
first of all, i was having great time.. really good time with my family in pangkor.dats da best moment we had after years..it's very hard for us to gather at one place and enjoying d events..dulu2 time kecik2 selalu la jugak berjalan...semua adik-beradik tmasuk my parents ikut sama naik van..(dulu ayah kite de van:)) hehe..time tu masing2 mcm da cop tempat la..akak ak yg sulung jaga pintu...akak ak yg second suke duduk kat belakang skali tepi tingkap pastu nyanyi...ngan rambut terbang2..n aku pun tempat belakang skali tp kat tpt yg xde tingkap..cermin semata2..panas je tp ape boleh buat..time tu junior(skrg pun..) kenelaaa ikut cakap kan..hee..kalau nak balik kampung pun senang..sekali jalan..
tp sekarang ni..banyak benda da berbeza..baru2 ni kitorg g Pangkor pun dengan 3 kete..sumenye proton wira ehh..mmg suke sokong barangan buatan Malaysia:) lelaki 1 kete..perempuan naik ngan akak ak n husband die n parents aku 1 kete..kitorg gerak dulu..tp xdela awal sgt..parents ak g kenduri siap..heee...perjalanan mengambil masa lebih kurang sejam setengah je..dekat kan?boleh pegi salu pas ni..da tau jalan..hehe:P nape ye ktorg xnaik 1 kete cm dulu?
1) sbb mmg da xmuat..masing2 bdn da besar..
2) adik-beradik sy 8 org..nk letak dlm bonet pn xleh muat punye..hehe
3)van tu da dijual..hehe
mmg puas ati la ngan vacation tu...naik feri..turun feri..naik van kaler pink kat pangkor..turun van...naik pelampung time mandi laut..turun pelampung..naik bot turun bot tuk g snorkeling...n naik banana boat..hehe
at last merasa jugak aku nak naik banana boat tu..nmpk cm best je kann..haha..membelah angin..mmg mbelah..lg best ble ak tbe2 tenggelam..da la xreti berenang..heee
ktorg siap berbarbeku lg malam tu...erm..pangkor is very beautiful and charming during sunset..seriously..nun jauh d sana langit berwarna ke'orange2'an dilindungi oleh pulau2 yg menambah lagi kecantikannya..heeee...cukup puitis x?xkott..hehe
okla.in a nutshell, da vacation is wonderful.hehe.terase cm buat karangan tuk upsr lak kan nak cite sume tuk dpt markah lebih..hehe.cukupla korg tau..family vacation itu sgt penting!!
hehe:) semoga keluargaku bahagia selamanya..
da second thing is over.bukan aku yg over atau sape2 yg over.bukan..tp hubungan aku n si dia is over.tamat wassalamu.da tutup kitab da.officially semalam.24 dec. a day before our second anniversary which is today, 25 dec.hehe.perlu lagi ke aku ingat?xtaula..heee..ianya bukanlah satu perbualan yg panjang berjela2..tidak..ianya sekadar perjalanan aku dari mahkota parade ke pantai puteri disertai dengan perjumpaan pendek d pantai itu..lagipun si dia sudah berpesan awal2..xmahu dgr aku berceramah..yela..org da banyak salah lagaknye..n banyak berfikir diri sendiri yg betul n xmakan nasihat..mmg cmtu kot..nanti kite kaji ye?tp aku xyahla nak kaji2 sbb aku mmg da tau jawapannya..heee..
setiap hari aku berfikir...berfikir..dan berfikir..ape sudah jadi..ape mau buat..eh silap..ape LAGI mau buat..kirela bape banyak mase yg aku da gune tuk berfikir..kawan?frankly speaking..aku mmg xleh terima if we are just friends.not dat easy u noe to change ur feelings.kawan jd lover is easy but lovers become friends will never suit me.in my case ni la..walaupun aku ni bukan la ahli fikir atau ape..tp ak sudah ambil langkah yang aku yakin betul untuk kebaikan diri aku, diri die dan semua orang.cewah ayat aku ni.ak tau mmg kedengaran poyo tetapi itulah yang aku cube lafazkan.hiks~ dengan yakinnya aku telah memberi dia dua pilihan..sama ada teruskan hubungan itu ataupun tamatkan dan tidak perlulah berhubung lagi sama sekali..dan dengan yakinnya dia..seperti dalam rancangan jangan lupa lirik dia pun memberikan jawapannya..iaitu pilihan yg kedua..aku sama sekali tidak terkejut kerana aku tahu keperluan dia dan aku sudah bersedia untuk itu..
ape nk difikirkan? fikirkan bile elaun nak masuk walaupun terseksa jauh lg baik dr memikirkan tentang kisah cinta yg xkesampaian..heee..
aku tau die xkan baca blog aku ini sebab die xsuke membaca dan aku harap aku tak terover-exposed kisah ini..heee..
lastly...
i jz cant wait to go to nz..to forget all da bitter memories i had here..
i think 2 years will b enough to reconstruct my life as happy as before i met him..
not forgetting my beloved family and sweet friends..
im single n i wont allow dat kind of burden come into my life again..
thanx for da lessons anyway..
Thursday, December 24, 2009
a new me..
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
kod lemak babi dlm keropok rota?
as usual.like every night.my routine is online.onlineee...n online...
as i scroll my filter for status updates in facebook, im very shocked to read this title.."kod lemak babi dlm keropok rota". posted by my senior a.k.a a very well-known tv3 personality, Ahmad Fedtri Yahaya.he said dat he received that email and the news was already being spread in www.ohtidak.com. and they are several codes which believe to have pig fat as its ingredients and all of them begin with E letter.for instance, E147. E may stand for Emulsifier, and how far the truth is, i still do not know. it is uncertain.oh my god..why this scenario should happen to an Islamic country like ours? why must this thing occur without the control of the responsible parties? do they do their work well by closing one eye to such cases?so many foods are suspected to be mixed with such special recipe.if that truely happen widely in our country, as a Muslim, what should i eat then, despite the fact that i love to eat junkfood. this is not an entry to scare u guys, but this is to make u realize and be more alerted next time about the food u consume. Some irresponsible people tend to defeat Islam as well as Muslim in may ways, this includes through food and and what we eat.
so guys, take note and be more cautious.ok:P
Monday, December 7, 2009
~post without title~
i dont hv any intention to reveal my private life through blogging.some people may say that those who choose to express their emotions through blogging are lonely in their own world.maybe they are right but for me, i totally disagree with that.u know why? bcoz from my point of view, blogging is a way for me to release my tension, to speak out and voice out everything when there's nobody around me to talk to.besides, it is also a kind of diary that u can reread in future so that u will have ur own journey of life in a written form. i mean typewritten.
people may perceive my life as miserable nowadays.what can i say is, yes, i am.im in trouble and its damn complicated.yeah. i have to admit though i dont want to.sometimes i wonder, why do i keep thinking about this, when i know that the thing that i hope for has no future. i dont mean at all but if there's really at least some hopes, i think i should work it out. but, at the end of the day, i seem to realize that my effort is endless...and might be useless..kinda funny rite..i would say that im tired already..
i remember when my friends tell me..dont let your problems sink you down.life is short that you should enjoy it.aha.take it easy.and only me know what's da best for myself.no one is going to help me unless i start by helping myself.friends.a good friend is the best supporter, encourage n cheer you up during happy or sad time.i've learned that.thanx.
what i did?
what i did?
hehe.let me tell u da truth. i was planning to cook on his birthday.im not really good at cooking,yet, i should give it a try and i still put on some hopes that he's going to get back home dat week.but then, all my assumption was wrong and things were not happened as expected.i was disappointed.and finally, i went out together with jojo and affrizal for bowling.affrizal treated us with 5 games and i really enjoyed myself.what a good day in Malacca International Bowling Centre(MIBC), i can say. u were happy there, me also, should be happy, rite?rite?what u give u get back?dohh..
the crazy of playing bowling continued again when my sister asked me to join her. we went to Mahkota Parade yesterday and i played with her friends as well.erm.also good day.it's a good day when you urself can enjoy urself up to the maximum without thinking much of ur conflicts.
the moral of the story: friends are more more more more important rather than ur loved one.erk?is that what u call....L.O.V.E.?well, do i have one?pfffttt~
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
~a sweet nite with frens~location: pantai puteri, malacca
erm. i jz get back from having a short n sweet time with frens.
tonite is sooooo cool and freezing...im shivering as i wear short sleeves of manchester united jersey.da fact dat d only jersey dat i hv all my life.hehe
politics is dirty.hehe.
as im currently staying in malacca n i cant manage to go out coz i hv no transport..(not bcoz im not independent 4 sure!)im glad to accept my guests from ilp bkt katil, malacca.they r eny( feel like calling my own nickname actually:P), may..a chinese looking girl and beyb(is this da way 2 spell ur name?:P) at first im a bit shy as dis is my 1st time meeting new frens: may n beyb. eny? i met her so many times b4.hehe..but then, everything goes well...
this is eny.eny boiet.;P
may.hehe.tau cuak time smpi kdai mkn:P
nway, having good time with u guys.:P p/s: beyb.sorip.pic xde ah..xbkesempatan nk tangkap:P
frenz, need ur views.
today is dec 1, 2009.5 more days to his birthday.
do i need 2 wish?or give him some presents?
or jz text or call? or...
urgghh..dis is sooo suffocating.
what am i going to do?
u celebrated mine but should i celebrate yours?
my mind urges me dat i should,
but my heart say i shouldn't.
logically, i should..he remembered u on ur bday.
make u feel special.
but my instinct say no..
2 gv him lesson.
is it possible?
friends.i really need ur views...
Sunday, November 29, 2009
la tahzan untuk aku
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
~bakti~
aku menaip entri ini dgn kepala yg pening dan mata yg berpinar.
"lily, am i ok?"
"yes, im ok."
hehe.sindri tanye sindri jawab.dah tu..sape lg nk tanye..im damn bored staying here.aduh.mmg xmenarik.kat mane2 pun xmenarik kalau macam ni.xde member aa kat cni.internet sahaja la peneman.nk keep in touch with frens.either in Malaysia or those who are studying abroad.
ye. my loyal companion, laptop.kerana kau, i got headcahe.:))
but, it's fine,u r my life...over cket.hehe:P
i've been thinking a lot these whole day until it gives some sort of headache to me.i noe it was damn vulnerable but what should i do?
i jz cant stop thinking bcoz it is holiday and i cannot make my hands occupied with something.make myself busy.xbleeeyyyyy..
sesungguhnya..inilah yg aku cuba sampaikan:
1st: thanx to my parents for posting the xray with the fastest courier on earth to our manager in Ipsah, Mdm Haaiyon.
Actually, i was a bit weird why they didn't collect the xray film on the same day when everyone were required to submit the forms and visa application. I guessed the responsible party might want to have a look to our xray film.It was horrifying to get the chain messages that we needed to submit as fast as possible. Though im a bit pissed off(i dont know the more polite words, sorry), deep in my heart, i appreciate mdm haaiyon's effort as she is willing to help us completing the visa application ..:P
2nd: thanx to my sister and bro-in-law for helping me about the latest things regarding visa application.
yes, they may not read this, that's good.hehe:)
3rd: my big bro paid the celcom bills for me.oho.terharunyeee...:p i told him dat i need to use the number as soon as possible bcoz i put da number as the priority in any official matter..:P
hehehehehehehhee...my family members berbakti kpd saya...saya bile lagi?:phehe
